If those of you out there in blogland have been wondering (or even care) where I've gone, I'll tell ya...to work. Last Friday we did a calibration session for the team and I got to sit in, unlike at mid year when I was shut out in the cold. It was a peek into management's expectations of their teams. It was filled with terms like, "pushing the boundaries of their role", "thinking outside the box", "visible presence on the team", "changing the way we do business", etc and when I walked out of there, I felt like a bag of poop.
Since the end of July, I've been "just doing my job" and nothing extra. In fact there have been days that I really didn't even do my job, I just passed the time with point and click games. Because of this I felt incredibly guilty after the calibration session. Although they didn't talk about me specifically, every time they were talking about anyone, I was doing my own self assessment.
I was sure I was going to get a shitty year end review I was ready to take responsibility but promise a change going forward. Instead ...it went great. Really great. And the three things I am to work on aren't really things I don't already do well, their just things to continue to improve on. I'm pretty stoked and looking more and more on making a career out of this place. I started as a temp one year ago yesterday and I've got no intention of leaving. I'm evaluating where in the organization I see myself best fitting against whether I could learn what it takes to work in a "non-administrative" role somewhere on this team. Lots to consider and sometimes I feel a little overwhelmed by the decisions I'm facing but I'm looking at the long term...the bigger picture here. I want a house. I want to own a house. Having this job will allow me to do that sooner rather than later. I'm back on the fence about having a family considering the events of the last year but having this job takes the "can we afford it" out of the equation at least.
So, if the posts aren't coming as often as you would like, I apologize. I'm over here working on my career!!!
Since the end of July, I've been "just doing my job" and nothing extra. In fact there have been days that I really didn't even do my job, I just passed the time with point and click games. Because of this I felt incredibly guilty after the calibration session. Although they didn't talk about me specifically, every time they were talking about anyone, I was doing my own self assessment.
I was sure I was going to get a shitty year end review I was ready to take responsibility but promise a change going forward. Instead ...it went great. Really great. And the three things I am to work on aren't really things I don't already do well, their just things to continue to improve on. I'm pretty stoked and looking more and more on making a career out of this place. I started as a temp one year ago yesterday and I've got no intention of leaving. I'm evaluating where in the organization I see myself best fitting against whether I could learn what it takes to work in a "non-administrative" role somewhere on this team. Lots to consider and sometimes I feel a little overwhelmed by the decisions I'm facing but I'm looking at the long term...the bigger picture here. I want a house. I want to own a house. Having this job will allow me to do that sooner rather than later. I'm back on the fence about having a family considering the events of the last year but having this job takes the "can we afford it" out of the equation at least.
So, if the posts aren't coming as often as you would like, I apologize. I'm over here working on my career!!!
2 comments:
Proud of you sweetie! You are incredible!
Don't feel like poop! NO POOPY FEELINGS! The fact that you feel guilty proves you are a good employee. One must have the point and click moments at work or go mad!
Those meetings you describe are total bullsh*t and meaningless, really. You are a great employee and as far as your plans go, you will figure it all out. Don't doubt your decisions and just look forward. Stay positive - I know it's hard (OH I KNOW) but there are much much worse things. It will all work itself out.
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